(Photo from our honeymoon in Cancun. I took this from our table at dinner one night. Oh, how I long to go back.)
What I have experienced this week is nothing less than a miracle. I am a planner.....worrier...whatever you want to call it. I stress about money and being "poor" probably more than is healthy. It wakes me up at night. (Yes, I know there are many people far less fortunate than I and just how ungrateful that might make me sound.) So, handing everything over God and submitting to his control is far from effortless. Sadly, I had stopped giving as much to God and other charities in my own little effort to budget everything. It did not feel good.
A wise woman (close family friend with a great understanding of the world.) told me last week that although I did not have the life I had planned on, I was exactly where I am supposed to be. That if I stopped worrying so much that God's many blessings would shine through. That when I stress so much I block out God's goodness. Then I left the tv on too long and the "700 Club" came on. They said something about someone saying that God was not a slot machine. The 700 Club stated something like, "God is the ultimate slot machine. You give him a little and his blessings will abound." (Ah, hello, God...You talking to me?) So, I took a deep breath and a leap of faith. I said Prayer of Jabez, gave some money to God and waited patiently, for once.
Monday, I got a commission check I wasn't expecting, I got two leads on accounts which could not only set my month, but blow my year out of the water, and then today another unexpected check arrived. Ever the planner, I crunched the numbers, and I kid you not the new amount is nearly to the penny of what was needed to get us to our next pay period. God's way of saying, "Hey, you.....I got it covered!" All I could do was be thankful, so much so that, yes, I cried.
Once again I am reminded that, "Where there is hope, there can be faith. Where there is faith, miracles can occur." I wish you all many blessings.